A Scar Untouched

I felt nothing could take away my pain.My loved ones,busy life,medicines nothing helped me.My loved ones tried their best to love me but something was missing & became the victim of self hate.I was so concerned about the image of me in others mind.They could make me and break me.Their one encouraging word made me soar high and one rude remark made me fall on the ground.I had let myself get affected  by people's attitudes.I wanted others to make me feel valued.I forgot that first i had to love myself than others could love me.I had to think positive.Life is not a bed of roses for anyone.Everyone has their own tragedy to deal with.Some have money some have love so nobody has a perfect life.I was a perfectionist and since my childhood i had lived in my imaginary world.I wanted people to act the way i wanted them too and the world to run with my choice.But as i grew up i realized about the existence of reality.In reality nobody can love you everyday.Your loved ones will hurt you and you will hurt them but still you would love each other.People will criticize you even if you become an angel .Just remember the encouraging words and forget the rude remarks.Sometimes you will be left alone and in the end Allah will be your best friend only.The more you become independent the more it will be good for you.It doesn't matter how nice you are to others they will treat you in their own way.You have to carry on a fake smile and you can't let your tears run freely.Life will bestow you with agony and leave scars on your souls.It is up to you that you keep complaining about your pain or do something to forget the pain.